Zzzquil

Another sponsored post! (not really.. I just received the Zzzquil liqui-caps free for testing purposes. Hopefully I'm poppin enough to be sponsored by Sephora, Anastasia Beverly Hills, BECCA cosmetics... ) Anywho. It works. A little too well actually. I slept longer than expected. Lol. Through lunch 😅 It's non habit forming so you won't be a pill popping animal. Make sure you have 8hrs to spare bc you won't wake up through the night. Best sleep I had in awhile though. Try it for yourselves. 💜

Ole Henriksen Voxbox

I'd already purchased two of the products in my #oleglow voxbox earlier this month but for blogging purposes "I received these products complimentary from Influenster for testing purposes." The sheer transformation is the perfect skin moisturizer to wear under your makeup. I've been wearing it daily! I love it. Now the other two products- Power Bright and Truth Serum; I can't say if I love them yet or if they're actually working. Is my skin clear enough to not wear foundation daily? Hell no. But hopefully I can revisit this post and update it later with my flawless skin. It's really impossible to test skin products because it takes weeks or even months to see results. But I can say that everything smells wonderful and it's like injections of orange juice into your face. Lol

Anthony... smh

There comes a time when you just have to say fuck it and move on.

I recently did that this year. It seems that the bulk of this blog revolves around ONE guy. I hate that. 8 years of content that 80% relates back to Anthony. Now I can say his name. I can type it out without worrying about any backlash or how people may view me to know that I was obsessed with an aint shit nigga for 10 years. Yea, the story of Anthony & I is older than this blog. So where am I today? I'm childless and living a less stressful life without that tumor of a person attached to my brain. 

He sucked all the life out of me. I didnt even know how to be myself without him which is why I held on for so long. He made so many promises and never came through on any of them. I've cried many nights thinking about him. I didnt want to live without him. I gave him my last many times before and still nothing was given back to me. Do you know how it feels to love someone wholeheartedly and not have that same amount of love reciprocated? 

even as I typed that I have to admit that I was a major part to blame., 

Was I 100% dedicated to him? Hell no! So can I honestly sit here and play victim because my feelings are hurt???? I'd like to. I'd like to tell the story of how Anthony cheated on me and had 3 whole babies while we were together but the funny thing about life is--- HE WAS NEVER MY BOYFRIEND.

WAIT. 10 years of fucking and this guy was never your man?? See it gets complicated.

We met my senior year and I hounded him to be my boyfriend for awhile so he agreed.. Then in classsic Brittney fashion I informed him that I was going to Spelman and would most likely meet my husband there so why bother with a title when Im leaving in August. I honestly dont know how that made him feel but years later he told me.. I cant write that because its his story to tell & even though I am not in a great space with him i cant just do him that dirty.

So for years after that there was a constant back & forth between us. Me alway holding him down. Being best friends. Discussing new women with me... And still fuckin inbetween.

my friends all hated him. They saw how hurt I was each time he'd tell me he didnt want a girlfriend then wife the next bitch after me. Making me feel as if I was only good for physical relations and nothing more. But Im a big girl. I allowed it. So I should be played. I caught him walking out my neighbors house. Yes, he was fuckin my neighbor. He fucked my manager when we worked at walmart together. Almost fought her. Fucked this chick I confronted him about in Nasty's. Oh she has his 3rd child--- 

Oh yea. His family doesn't know about her. Sorry

You know what... Im not mature enough to finish this.

Dont give a guy your time and energy when he shows you his true intentions off the top. Men dont really change. If he's aint shit at 21 not much changes at 31. Be wise. Fuck niggas. Live for you. An

Maybelline Matte + Poreless #FitMeFoundation

I love my Maybelline matte + poreless FitMeFoundation in the shade Coconut. When you are a brown skin girl, it's very difficult to find drugstore foundation in YOUR SHADE. Usually there's 12 shades of beige and then you have 3 dark shades you must combine to find your hue. I've always fell right in between shades- like most things in my life. Lol I was so scared when I found out that Influenster chosen me for the fitme voxbox. The last time I received foundation in a voxbox it was about five shades too light and that was the token brown shade! 😩 I was devastated. I ended up using it as a highlight once and it's currently under my bathroom counter in makeup purgatory. So, the cons are... There's no pump so you're losing product at times. There's no such thing as a matte foundation! Lol, eventually you will be shiny in that t zone but it's really on par with my MAC studio fix fluid foundation. Save $20 and go with FitMeFoundation! Now let's look at my flawless face 🙃



I received this item free to test from Influenster and Maybelline as a part of the Voxbox program.