New Orangey & Purple featuring Biley Myrus
I hate when beige folk get ahold of something our community has been doing for years. They always ruin it. Ying Yang Twins made that "Whistle While You Twerk" song like 10 years ago i believe. And actually before it was called twerking it was just booty shaking. Been dancing like that all my life.
Monday, August 5, 2013
Saturday, August 3, 2013
5am In Huntsville
I don't need anyone.
No man. No friends. No family.
When you go through something and realize that literally NO ONE has your back but yourself, you realize that you don't need them. Why are they around? You add no value to my life. Clearly I don't need you.
So much on my mind. I'm just over these lying ass niggas. I'm over these niggas who owe me money & refuse to pay me back. I'm over it.
I just pray to god I find a way to make it.
I already got it. I don't need you new niggas. At all.
I'm turning 25 this year. I'm excited now. Finally old enough to be honest with myself and move on. I'm happy. I just want to be able to do everything I want to do. I'm working on that. Bee is able.
Speaking things into existence:
I will be successful this year.
I will buy a car on my own within 6weeks.
I will live in my first home alone within 3months.
I will be happy.
I will lose the weight.
I will not depend on anyone financially.
I will get my ring.
I will have my daughter.
I will love.
I will live.
No man. No friends. No family.
When you go through something and realize that literally NO ONE has your back but yourself, you realize that you don't need them. Why are they around? You add no value to my life. Clearly I don't need you.
So much on my mind. I'm just over these lying ass niggas. I'm over these niggas who owe me money & refuse to pay me back. I'm over it.
I just pray to god I find a way to make it.
I already got it. I don't need you new niggas. At all.
I'm turning 25 this year. I'm excited now. Finally old enough to be honest with myself and move on. I'm happy. I just want to be able to do everything I want to do. I'm working on that. Bee is able.
Speaking things into existence:
I will be successful this year.
I will buy a car on my own within 6weeks.
I will live in my first home alone within 3months.
I will be happy.
I will lose the weight.
I will not depend on anyone financially.
I will get my ring.
I will have my daughter.
I will love.
I will live.
Saturday, April 6, 2013
Baby Mamas & No Drama?
Am I ready to be a stepmother? Am I ready to love another woman's child wholeheartedly because I love the father? Can I be a positive role model in this child's life? Am I mature enough to understand that his children come first??
These are questions I often ask myself... Whether I like it or not, the man of my dreams may have children with another woman. It takes a lot to actually be apart of a man's life with kids. You're suddenly thrown in the role of parent and some just aren't ready for that. I question my own maturity at times. Will I truly love this child as my own and not be catty as some women are and use this child as a way to get closer to the father for my own selfish reasons? Will I be a bitch towards the mother? Will I be jealous of the child when he receives the attention from his father instead of me??
I guess it's easy for me to see all aspects of this situation.. Dealings with baby mamas and children from previous relationships because I am somewhat a product of that environment. I have wonderful women in my life who are not my biological mothers but I loved them as mother figures growing up. Eventually all adults began to get along with one another. Great family unit. No animosity or drama. And I even gained a great extended family that I still communicate with today.
I feel like I am almost ready to be a stepmother. Almost because I'm not 100% sure I can be a wife just yet, but I will rock as a girlfriend. And I don't want the biological mother of my potential step kids to feel as if I'm trying to be their mother. Because I am not a parent. I am just who this particular father chooses to be with... Now. Things may change. I have a pure heart with everything.. And pure intentions. I just want to be with the man that I love. And if he already has kids I hope to grow to love them as much as or more than I love their father simply because I love HIM.
Of course I have my own issues. I may become jealous because he has children with women whom I assume he didn't really love yet he loves me and we have yet to create life together. But I am a 24 year old woman who is seeing her classmates and friends all get married and start families and this has convinced my biological clock to tick erratically and yea... But that is for another post. I think I may be ready... I will never know until I try though. The things we do for love.
These are questions I often ask myself... Whether I like it or not, the man of my dreams may have children with another woman. It takes a lot to actually be apart of a man's life with kids. You're suddenly thrown in the role of parent and some just aren't ready for that. I question my own maturity at times. Will I truly love this child as my own and not be catty as some women are and use this child as a way to get closer to the father for my own selfish reasons? Will I be a bitch towards the mother? Will I be jealous of the child when he receives the attention from his father instead of me??
I guess it's easy for me to see all aspects of this situation.. Dealings with baby mamas and children from previous relationships because I am somewhat a product of that environment. I have wonderful women in my life who are not my biological mothers but I loved them as mother figures growing up. Eventually all adults began to get along with one another. Great family unit. No animosity or drama. And I even gained a great extended family that I still communicate with today.
I feel like I am almost ready to be a stepmother. Almost because I'm not 100% sure I can be a wife just yet, but I will rock as a girlfriend. And I don't want the biological mother of my potential step kids to feel as if I'm trying to be their mother. Because I am not a parent. I am just who this particular father chooses to be with... Now. Things may change. I have a pure heart with everything.. And pure intentions. I just want to be with the man that I love. And if he already has kids I hope to grow to love them as much as or more than I love their father simply because I love HIM.
Of course I have my own issues. I may become jealous because he has children with women whom I assume he didn't really love yet he loves me and we have yet to create life together. But I am a 24 year old woman who is seeing her classmates and friends all get married and start families and this has convinced my biological clock to tick erratically and yea... But that is for another post. I think I may be ready... I will never know until I try though. The things we do for love.
Thursday, March 28, 2013
Lusty Life Volume 1
I finally upgraded and got some overpriced phone, the iPhone 5, and joined the ranks of others who have joined this apple crap. Oh well. Since I have a better phone, I can blog more. But mobile blogging sucks. Any who, lets get into what's going on in my life.....
I was in a relationship at the end of last year and half of January. Didn't last long enough for me to blog about. So I'm back single. I actually enjoy it more. Being a single 24 year old is much better than I had originally thought. I love my free time. I love being able to reflect... I love it.
Anthony... We are still ok. After all was said and done, we met up somewhere in the middle of our lives and have acquired a mutual love and respect for one another. I love him. That's apparent. He loves me as well. But are we in love with each other? Nah I highly doubt it. We still remain great friends and I'm happy that we can work on a platonic relationship together. If that turns to something else, great but for now I'm happy where we stand. With Anthony, I had to let go and see what had become of us. So many of our issues came from lack of trust & communication. So much we never discussed. I also feel as if we are the way we are towards each other because of past relationships.
At the end of the day, I have him in my life and I'm happy with that. I talk to other guys and he probably talks to other women but I'm ok with it. We aren't together. And even though at times he gives me girlfriend privileged authority, I can't run off every female who appears to get too close. All about growing....
Speaking of growing, working on my personal relationship with God. Trying to grow spiritually. Meditating. Trying to work through my issues. Constant battles with the voices inside my head and the demons that seem to dwell within me. I am especially at war with this lusty demon. Matters of the flesh as a downfall always seem to pop up in my birth charts when trying to discover who I am astrologically. But I am a smart woman who is constantly working. Be blessed. Read on.
Love,
Bee
I was in a relationship at the end of last year and half of January. Didn't last long enough for me to blog about. So I'm back single. I actually enjoy it more. Being a single 24 year old is much better than I had originally thought. I love my free time. I love being able to reflect... I love it.
Anthony... We are still ok. After all was said and done, we met up somewhere in the middle of our lives and have acquired a mutual love and respect for one another. I love him. That's apparent. He loves me as well. But are we in love with each other? Nah I highly doubt it. We still remain great friends and I'm happy that we can work on a platonic relationship together. If that turns to something else, great but for now I'm happy where we stand. With Anthony, I had to let go and see what had become of us. So many of our issues came from lack of trust & communication. So much we never discussed. I also feel as if we are the way we are towards each other because of past relationships.
At the end of the day, I have him in my life and I'm happy with that. I talk to other guys and he probably talks to other women but I'm ok with it. We aren't together. And even though at times he gives me girlfriend privileged authority, I can't run off every female who appears to get too close. All about growing....
Speaking of growing, working on my personal relationship with God. Trying to grow spiritually. Meditating. Trying to work through my issues. Constant battles with the voices inside my head and the demons that seem to dwell within me. I am especially at war with this lusty demon. Matters of the flesh as a downfall always seem to pop up in my birth charts when trying to discover who I am astrologically. But I am a smart woman who is constantly working. Be blessed. Read on.
Love,
Bee
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