A Woman Like Me

Do you think you could fall for a woman like me? Cuz I find it hard to trust, I need too much & I really don't believe in love... Do you think that I could be the girl of your dreams? Sometimes I don't let things go, get emotional & sometimes I'm just out of control...

Last night I pierced my nipples. Yes, both of em. I felt like I needed to do something to cause more pain than the heartache I was experiencing. You know, the pain from my nipples being pierced by two huge needles HAD to be wayyy more intense than anything involving my heart. It kind of worked. Tonight was the first night I didn't cry  in a few days. I'm still hurting though but I know that once my boobs heal, my heart will as well. Or is that wishful thinking?

Hmmm.. I honestly don't know. I just need something to take care of to distract me from everything WRONG in my life. I've been sick for most of 2011. I spoke too soon. I feel tears a'coming but I refuse to cry. A woman like me.. man. Who wouldn't want a woman like Bee? Sheesh.

I need to get far away.. Because every time I see him with her, I want to fall to my knees in tears. Whenever I see him I just want to runaway & hide. I can't do THIS anymore.

 I can't be your friend but I don't want to completely erase you from my life... But I can't move on from you if I don't erase you from my life entirely. Honestly, I just hope that this decision is for the best. I don't like how you look at her the same way you used to look at me.

My friends thought that maybe if I had a one night stand I'd feel better-- eh no thanks. lol. Or to just find a new guy... I can't. My heart isn't ready for that. *sigh* Or am I just being too dramatic? Probably so. I just feel like you've strung me along... I wasted  some of the best years of my life on you... You just threw my love away. I want to know WHY her--- well really, Why not ME? Yea.. why NOT me?! Men.

My Mine - Jhene

buried alive here, inside a nightmare, living a life where, you're gone-
there is no light here, it will be lightyears, until my minds clear, you're gone.
i did it all for love, i did it all. i traded it all for ya, i traded all..
but what do i care for? what are you here for? if you're not there when i call
i was not careful, and it's all your fault, you let me fall.

memories sinkin, deep in, leakin, in my mine
all of the time, tried to forget you
thought i could get you to be mine
memories sinkin, deep in, leakin, in my mine
all of the time, i can't forget to
try to forget you in my mind



i'll be alright, i will be just fine-- i'll be okay once you get out my mind.

Why Does It Hurt So Bad?

why does it hurt so bad?
why do I feel so sad?
thought I was over you but I keep crying when I don’t love you??
so why does it hurt so bad?
I thought I had let you go so why does it hurt me so?
gotta get you out of my head..


It has been a rough week for me. I haven't been able to say how I really feel without bursting out in tears. So instead of pouring my heart out, I shall post lyrics/songs that will give you better insight on how I feel.

NABE Let's Move! Flash Workout

NABEF is coordinating a "Let's Move! Flash Workout" featuring 16-time Grammy Award winner Beyoncé in support of First Lady Michelle Obama's initiative aimed at curbing childhood obesity.

On Tuesday, May 3, 2011 at 1:42 p.m. Eastern Time and across time zones (12:42 p.m. Central Time, 11:42 a.m. Mountain time, etc.), middle schools across the country will participate in the "Let's Move! Flash Workout." This historic event will underscore the importance of physical activity as part of a healthy lifestyle for children.

Music superstar Beyoncé is the exclusive featured artist for the Flash Workout event. Beyoncé has re-written and re-recorded one of her songs and has titled it "Move Your Body." She has also provided choreography in an instructional video that educators can use to help their students practice and prepare for event day. The song and instruction video have been produced in English and Spanish.

The event is being produced in partnership with the National Middle School Association (NMSA), the National School Boards Association (NSBA) and the American Association of School Administrators (AASA). Though these education partners, NABEF looks to secure participation by at least one middle school in each television DMA.

Our goal is to pair at least one local radio and television station with each participating school in each market. The local stations will be asked to cover the event, record the schools' routines as they are being performed and to consider streaming the event live on their websites.