2013

It's been FOUR months since my last post and...

That's wayyyy too long! I'm trying my best to blog more frequently.

I'm so lost right now. I am searching for love in all the wrong places. Keep falling into the same traps. Letting certain someone come and go as he pleases. It's just... A lot going on right now. I just want love. That's what we all want. I must be strong. Pray for strength. I know better. I know better! I.Know.Better.

Like, now because of lurking I've found out that my boo is still very much in a relationship with his ex. And he's been driving her car to come see me these last few months.

I'm not mad. Always trust your gut. ALWAYS. You may be called crazy, but your body is a wonderful instrument. Your mind is a powerful tool. If you feel like something isn't right, SOMETHING AINT RIGHT!

And as of now, I can't even blog anymore.

I'm just dumbfounded. Because as I was writing this post, I figured that shit out.

Bee Is Back!

I've been gone for a minute.. but now I am back! I've just been so busy. Moved in new place. Working my buns off. I turned 24. My bestfriend got engaged on 9.30.12!!! I love BLACK LOVE. So... Since the theme of September turned from horrible to amazing in a matter of moments, I've decided to make a change. Love is the theme of my life. The fact that I was sooo genuinely happy for someone else... it gave me hope for love. Like the Maya Angelou quote said "For those who have given up on love I say 'Trust Life A Little Bit'". Trust life. I am trusting life. I am focused on making my life THIS much better.

Currently addicted to pinterest. Planning Tanya's wedding. Bridal Shower/Bachelorette Party. AND I will begin writing again soon.

I refuse to let another human make me feel anything but Happy & Loved. I cannot give anyone else that much control over me.

Bee patient.


Be patient love... This could be us.

2012 Spring-Summer Pics

End of An Era

... Yes ladies and gentlemen, it is truly the end of an era. My [x] year long drought of singleness has come to an end. I--- have-- a --- Man. A real life man. No, not Sebastian.. an actual boyfriend.. but since i'm 23, I feel like "boyfriend" is a rather childish term.

But yes. Besides working and searching for a new job/apt, I have been working on my relationship with B. And I love him. Everything is going great.

Wait, no no.. not "love" him.. but like, i like him alot and we mesh well together.

Anywho.. I'm living. Going to get back to blogging again soon.. I promise. Until then I guess i could upload pics.

<3