vivid blandness

ugh..

so yeah today is NOT a good day.
i feel BLAH. one of THOSE days.
last night i was a typical GIRL. haha.
how i hate to admit that no matter how much of a badass i think i am and how heartless i may seem, sometimes i just wanna be NEAR him, and not only him.. SOMEONE. lol

i need to mail off my absentee voter thingy. Obama-Biden 08.
i REFUSE to vote for Palin. i mean McCain.
The MAIN focus of the McCain camp at first was to prove how UNQUALIFIED Obama was for the job of commander in chief yet he chooses a woman who is more than UNQUALIFIED & INEXPERIENCED, the lady is a complete MESS. She does not know ANYTHING about foreign policy besides knowing that Alaska is only miles away from Russia and it's near Canada. She could not even name any supreme court cases in her interview with Couric besides Roe v. Wade. How are WE supposed to vote for someone whose dumb enough to choose Palin as his running mate?? And I'm smarter than Palin!!! She could have at least said Brown v Board of Education, Plessy v Ferguson, etc.. She is a cheap attempt to try to lure Hillary backers into believing that she is an equivalent to Mrs. Clinton. Please. Palin? Why? Can't wait for the Biden-Palin debate :)

moving along,
guys suck.

blabber jabber

hmm, i feel like its time i write a note that has no significance to the world whatsoever..just a regular note that shouldn't get ANY comments or attention besides the usual random glances; a freakin boring ass note that should not spark any meaningful conversations at all..
so with that being said;

ahem..
i just took a shower.. i love hot water.. and then at the very end of my shower once i'm all so fresh and so clean, clean-- i often turn the water from scalding hot to cold and yeahh.. thats funny. i like to joke alot

i had an interesting conversation with a guy last night. asked me where have i been all semester.. "i've been right HERE". thats the story of the day.. I'm always right here, you just don't see me.. I'm trying to do this thing call blend in a fit in amongst the general public.. haha. you know the girl who wears this bright ass orange huddy yet still expects to be under the radar. ha. so not a bright idea to wanna be lowkey yet wearing the loudest colors smh.anywho, the guy also said i was cute. thanks. i like cute. makes me feel like a young pup.. a mere babe and not some overgrown ass twenty year old WHO looks like she's a fresh eighteen.

some guys think i'm funny.. and laugh at everything i say; even when i'm trying to be serious but only because when i really try to get a point across i become very passionate about it and my passionate face is plastered on, well my face and yeahh i began to say weird things, awkward things. and then he laughs. like its a joke. and i'm soo serious.and i'm an awkward turtle for real. i think everything is awkward..you know like nakedness is awkward. and just the regular umm lemme spit that la la la and then you can come and spit that la la la and we can just la la la together.. hahaha"i want to become ONE with you" by far the funniest thing i've heard this week.

umm DRY HATING was what some chick named amanda brooks accused my friend of doing. too bad i don't know who she is nor do i know what dry hating is. i guess its like moist hating after all of the moisture has evaporated.. but then shouldn't it be called evaporated hating?? hmmm.. idk but i just feel like she is a sad human being who believes that having 1000 facebook friends makes her important. I mean, its not like she's networking or anything.. and i hope she knows that random guys add girls allllll the time so its nothing to be bragging about. [shameless bragging to start in 4...3...2...1..]

i mean, right now i have 23 unanswered friend requests and i'm not bragging!!
lol

there's a picture of me and i look skinny in it.. hahaha so cool.umm yeah another awkward turtle situation.i had a conversation with an old flame about being a sperm donor.. hmmmm...
its only because i've come to the conclusion that I probably won't get married so if i do want a kid i'd have to pay a guy to skeet skeet and bang bang. okay maybe not pay, but ASK. nicely of course.but i don't want kids.. Alot of ppl don't know me so i guess i shall let it be known certain facts about myself..

i mean if you read between the lines you may be able to understand me and then possibly .. idk. it doesn't matter.i like pictures of myself because i like looking at myself.. and trying to remember what i was thinking when that picture was taken.i think my boobs are growin but heyy whose counting the cuppage??


anywho i'm done.

adios.

skeet skeet.

of course you want to know bout my night.
well i hung out with a friend in the suites and drunk juice; listened to music
you know the usual.
umm yeah, so a game of truth or dare aroused and i ended up getting chocolate syrup licked off my neck. it was umm very very random. and awkward. and weird.
but heyy, no one else wanted to do the dares soo i had to.. for the sake of the shindig.
nothing else remotely exciting happened though..
anywho,
that guy sent me a message on myspace today.
random.
why? i don't know.. but i am indeed over him.
have you forgotten my name??
its bee in case you have and i am of course vividly bland..
with or without you :)

coca-cola

my fave drink in atl? cherry coke :)

why?? its better than Mr Pibb; the alternative to Dr Pepper..

and i like cherries~

so really i should be writing this Shakespeare open response but of course i need to vent & rave;

you know i LOVE to vent & rave--

ahem,

so the other night Otis calls me *lol*

yess indeed he does.. wants to check out my myspace.. WOW.

i know lame right?? my myspace is kid tested & mother approved these days.. so of course i added him.. He actually spent all that time looking through ALL of the albums that i had viewable just to see ME. wow. umm yeah..

so you know it gets BETTER. Why this dude have the nerve to say "i know you got some ass shots.." LMAO.

Ok. I let him have it, and i shall say it AGAIN..

"women who respect themselves won't post degrading and explicit pictures of themselves in their underwear on myspace. if i want to get down like that, i might as well take them to playboy and get paid"

**FYI** I'll never pose nude.. lol

Now, I'm not downing anyone for posing nude, if its done tastefully of if that's what your GROWN behind wants to do. Its your body.. but seeing as some in his past have pics like that maybe he thinks that's ME.

NO. not BEE.

I have a 13 year old sister whose watching my every move plus my 6 year old and 5 year old cousins who idolize me.

I have to at least make SOME responsible decisions for the sake of those who look up to me.

that's ALL i have to say.

hope the public appreciates my rants..

oh yeah boys suck

Bee Days

So as you all know yesterday was my twentieth birthday, aka my BEE DAY.
ahem, sooo much better than last year :)

went to the world of coca cola.. & then benihana's where I realized that I do not like sushi.
i knew i wasn't wrong ugh..
i still HATE seafood. even shrimp.. yucky.

so yeah..
i mean, at least i tried it right??

we got into the world of Coke for FREE. ,<< my favorite word.

thats basically it..

oh yeah, so that "dude" who shall remain anonymous, had the audacity to think that I would blow off my friends to go "freak" with him.. smh
excuse YOU!!
i'll never put a dude before my girls.. EVER.
unless we're in a relationship.
he only wanted SEX.
anywho,
BESIDES ALL THAT FRIEND VS BOYS ISH..
i just can't have ANY dude try and make me do something..
lol..
not gonna happen.
i am GROWN as hell;
i am SINGLE;
and i do as i please..
if i WANNA be with this dude tonight, i will be with that dude tonight..
if i wanna be with my girls, i'm chillin with them..
and if i just want to be a bitch and be by myself for a little while THEN chill with my dude then thats what I will do..
i just can't have ANYBODY make me do ANYTHING that i don't wanna do..
smh..

anywho,
i'm twenty. i'm grown. i'm looking for a job :)

help me out mmkay??

fuck IKE

my latest obsession is hating these darn hurricanes.
world must be ending soon.
we should all go GREEN. and stop global warming.
because of IKE, i had to um wait 2 days before i spoke with my family..
i miss my mommy dearest.. ugh.. this sucks =[
i miss my brothers & lil sis too.. plus my cousins and such.

everybody is having kids BUT me..
smh
well i mean, i'm not mother material but i just think that i'm too old now..
ahhh
tomorrow i will be twenty years old and im still unemployed.

umm yeah, what else???

i'm BROKE because of IKE.
and moody..


so everytime i go out and have fun or party he thinks that i end up having sex with somebody?? hahaha NOT even.

i mean, its not hard at all for me to lay up and get it but just because i'm slightly inebriated doesn't mean you will find me laid up..

you have to have standards and know your limits..

i could've had sex but guys have morals these days lol

anywho i'm done.
peace.

hurricanes

even though i'm all the way in atl i'm worried bout my ppl..

took a quiz 2day in shakespeare; hopefully i did AWESOME.
CIS sucks..

those were the only classes i had 2day. lucky me.



BEE day festivities start this weekend. =]
i will be twenty years old on tuesday. thats ancient.


okay, so here's the DRAMA..

so my weight has been an issue since the beginning of time..
when i'm skinny i'm anorexic looking and when i'm NOT skinny i'm "rotund" lol
so now i'm in this inbetween stage where my weight is cool but i need to still tone it up.
of course some guys want to mold me into this video vixen type girl and thats not my style.

i know i have an ass but thats natural.
i will NOT have some guy come to me and try to CHANGE me.
Sorry i don't have abs.. sorry i don't have long hair down to my ass.
Sorry that everytime you saw me, i'm dressed completely down..
do you wanna know why??

If you can't accept me at my worst, you most definitely don't deserve me at my BEST.


If you can not see my beauty without the makeup and revealing clothing then you don't like ME.

I'm a trainwreck in the morning.. yes thats true.
can you handle it??

NO.


so you don't deserve ME.

Depths of My Mind

What do i wanna do??

i wanna be a writer mama, i wanna sing!!

funny.

my voice sucks. my words don't.

my true love is words..

some ppl like music but i guess im different..

i get that almighty high from the alphabet..
these 26 letters can make so much..

on to something else. i'm lonely.

it sucks.

i had a crush on jojo but he don't love me no more..

ugh.

jojo sucks..

he knows what he did..

i wish jojo was the one..

but i know he's not..


i think i will end up in south dakota.

umm

i'm thirsty..

machine stole my last 3 quarters..

bank of america stole $100 from me..

i'm broke.

this is NOT the life..

i'm homeless still.

it sucks..

im bumming my friends out..

oh yeah, the gave me a card..

its soo cute.

and nice.

i love them.

i feel bad..



i want to be loved.



they love me so i guess i am loved.

thanks.

it means ALOT to me..

i wish i could tie you up in my shoes, make you feel unpretty too..



oh yeah, my newest obsession.

weird songs..

ok not weird.

i like solange.. T.O.N.Y is my fave.

new beyonce album is comin in november.
i like Stop Sign.
:)


BEE Day in 4 days ;)