He aint shit.

Being that its Black History Month i really don't want to say Niggas Aint Shit.. Just all bad. Okay, so there was this guy who found me on facebook (surprise surprise) & decided that he needed my number. okay, I gave it to him. We texted back & forth where he proceeded to feed me alll of the bullshit that niggas feed you when they are trying to initially get at you. Okay.. I didn't believe ONE blip of it. So he really wanted to be my man. YOu know he was "looking for a serious, relationship..." blah blah blah. & this is right at the cusp of me accepting the fact that I shall remain single until the end of the world. hmph. Anywho, we hung out once. We were supposed to have a date but somehow ended up back at his place.. mmmmhmmm. Okay so he wanted to take a nap.. then invited me to nap with him. red flag again. This lead to some pretty decent head. & NO sex. bc i saw his peen & it was not remarkable to say the least. (plz forgive the typos, my hands are frozen..) So... FFWD a few days & low & behold he has a GIRLFRIEND on facebook now. & guess what?! They are in LOVE!!!! Awwwwww. How sweet. I mean, were you really trying to form a relationship with me or you just wanted sex? dudes.. if its just lovin that u want be honest. smh. so yeah. that nigga aint shit.

Fuck Valentine's Day

With Valentine's day quickly approaching I feel the need to get alot of things off my chest. This is the 21st consecutive Valentine's Day I will be spending SINGLE. How? You ask.. Well, I don't know about why I was young & single as a little kid. I didn't really care much about guys. Plus nothing prepubescent counts. So lets say this is the EIGHTH consecutive Valentine's Day I've spent alone. Hmmm. So in High School I could never really stay with a guy for long. Mainly because I always crushed on the guy who had a girlfriend already or who was too damn old for me.. Or every guy just wanted to talk to me because they heard I was easy. Thanks Michael. Hmm. I wasn't easy though, I just really liked Michael & thought that he liked me too & that having sex with him kind of sealed the deal. WRONG. But enough of that shit. I had a guy break up with me the day before Valentine's day.. Yeah on the 13th. Apparently he wasn't ready to be in another relationship. Hmmm whatever. Yea i'm talking about you Jeremy. Those were the years when I just wanted a boyfriend so bad that I'd date anyone. I always heard from ppl "You better get with him girl! You know [insert holiday here] coming up! You gotta get something!" Smh.. so i'd talk to guys who clearly didn't really time me. They just wanted to be the talk of the locker room..

I've accepted the fact now that every guy who shows interest isn't going to like me for me but still. shit sucks. oh well. Thats why I say fuck vday. :)

This doesn't mean I haven't had Valentines though. Every year I've received something besides last year. All through high school I received flowers from guys who liked me, stuffed animals, chocolate. the sappy ish. I even received valentines from my daddy who always loves me regardless :) so yes honey, I am loved always on Valentine's Day :)