Dear Whitney Kimball

Dear Whitney Kimball, 

Fuck you. Yes.. FUCK YOU and fuck every other white woman who decides to write a think piece every single time Beyoncé posts a pic on Instagram. As soon as she dropped her pregnancy announcement, you were upset because it was "over the top" and "she isn't the first person to get pregnant". When she dropped the first pics of her twin blessings you once again scolded Beyoncé for making having twins look too glamorous and perfect. 

Now, this bored white woman named Whitney has decided to say that Beyoncé ruined roller skating. Why you ask? Well, Beyoncé uploaded a video to Instagram yesterday with the song Caroline by Aminé playing on a loop. More specifically the lines "she's a bad thing, fine as hell, thick as fuck..." since she's sporting a thicker body since delivering the twins in June. She's a bad thing, not roller skating Whitney! You're so dumb, Whitney! I swear, you white women are all so jealous of everything Beyoncé does. Any mediocre Sarah can post a million pics and videos of her twins Tanner and Paisley and you wouldn't bat an eye. You'd praise her for being some rare super mom for merely breathing. Now let Beyoncé post anything that you deem as perfect and she's immediately put on the chopping block. 

No one is going to explain anything to you, stupid Whitney, because you white women are obsessed with Black women simply existing. You don't understand the video because it wasn't for you to understand. It wasn't even hard for anyone with a slice of knowledge on music and pop culture to understand but you Whitney's are impossible to reach 🤦🏾‍♀️

Fuck you. Fuck every white Woman who decides to write a think piece about any mother just doing what 99% of mothers do on social media-- post pics of themselves and their kids. Can she breathe? Goddamn! 

Whitney Kimball, please kiss Beyoncé's perfectly round ass skating backwards. Suck on her perfectly orchestrated videos with pics of her hands and Black Magic tee. Get a big whiff of how she's embracing her seemingly normal SnapBack body post body (because she still has a stomach and wayyy more cake-- but you know since she was always in shape her body looks flawless even when it's flawed because she's Beyoncé and you're just a hater bitch)

Fuck you Whitney Kimball and stop being such a hater bitch. And fuck Jezebel for publishing that trash ass article. Please, let's give anyone a fuckin byline. 

Love, 

A Loving Beyhive Member who is fed up with White Women hating Beyoncé for being the bad bitch that she is. 

Let's Be Honest

I don't know what I'm doing.
I have no idea what I am doing with my life.
My life has become a series of unfortunate events that seem too dramatic to be real life.
My life is a made for tv drama.
Or a romantic comedy- minus the romance. Borderline psychological thriller.
My life is pathetic.

I often convince myself that things are better than they actually are.
I tell myself that I'm happy when I'm not in hopes that one day it'll be true.
I pretend that relationships are healthy when in reality it's killing me slowly.
I act tough when in fact I'm a mere shell of a person.
I'm weak.
I'm unstable.
I'm always moments away from crying.
I'm foolish.
I'm afraid.
I'm always making things more difficult than they need to be.

I can't speak up for myself.
It's easier to act like things don't affect me when every little thing does.\
I'm sensitive as fuck. My feelings are easily hurt. I am once again right where I said I'd never be..

Let's be honest for once in our lives. Let's learn to live a life worthy of living. Let's be real.
Let's open up and live the way we ought to live.

End of an Era

February 25, 2012 marks the end of the saga known as Anthony & Brittney. I don’t know why I let it go on as long as I did. This has been like 5 years of my life. Consuming all of me. For the last year he was all I ever thought about. He was all I ever wanted. I thought he was going to be the ONE for me. I was thinking marriage. Silly Brittney.
I do not want to be alone. I refuse to be alone. He was just this clutch I had. Something to lean on when things got bad. So I wouldn’t feel like I was alone knowing that I was. Just a safety net. I hate this shit.
It’s like how much must someone show you that they don’t want you for you to finally believe it? How many times do they have to tell you that they just want to be friends for you to believe it?
I believe it now. And it hurts so bad. But this is the best thing for me. ME. I just wanted to have something so bad.
What do I do now? How do I start over & somehow forget all about him? Pretending that things were better. When they weren’t worth shit.
Is your heart still mine?

Take It All - Adele

Didn't I give it all?
Tried my best
Gave you everything I had
Everything and no less
Didn't I do it right
Did I let you down

Maybe you got too used to
By having me around
Still how can you walk away
From all my tears.
It's gonna be an empty road
Without me right here

[Chorus]
But go on and take it
Take it all with you
Don't look back
At this crumbling fool
Just take it all
With my love
Take it all
With my love

Maybe I should leave
To have you see
Nothing is better than this
And this is everything we need
So is it over?
Is this really you've given up so easily?
I thought you loved me more than this

[Chorus]

I would change if I must
Slow it down and bring it home
I will adjust.
Oh if only, if only you knew
Everything I do
Is for you

[Chorus]

Trashy & the Tranny

Yall want to hear drama. I will GIVE you the drama. Unfortunately its the same little fake eyebrows having, tranny lookin, stalkerish, obsessed & delusional heffa who has a baby by that guy I was involved with in hs (you know the one whose car got keyed??) Anywho, so this heffa works with my brother's girlfriend & feels the need to discuss me and MY business whenever she gets the chance to breathe. If its not one thing its another..

It would be totally okay if she wasn't saying such outlandish and untrue things. So apparently I dyed my hair brown to look like her sister... huh?? Bee has never dyed her hair brown. And if you really wanna take it there, I've been coloring her hair (with rinses & semi permanent dyes of course) since I was 16... around the same time I was with the lame ass nigga that she's taking care of now. OOP. She has also says I wear alot of makeup to work and her and Duce see me everytime they come to my job. Oh did I say a name? Hahahaha.

Also she claims that my brother is very good friends with Duce -____-. She also felt the need to say that I got his number from someone else... but I mean my number has been the same since 2004. He's had my number since 2005. Of course he'll still know it by heart. Of course he'll still call me. Of course you making him change his number will NOT change this tidbit at all. Sad, sad girl.

But I never discuss her. I never say anything about her life because it doesn't concern me. She likes to call me broke yet her car got repossessed & she got evicted. OOP. She has three kids and only half ass takes care of one of em. OOP. I could report her ass for getting high & smoking around her kids (yes the baby too) but nahhh.. Aint gonna do that.

I think she's just a fan of mine. She probably wants to fuck me too. My name is always in her mouth. Unfortunately I'm not into girls.. and even if I were she's sooo not attractive to me at all. I hope she knows that he just hooks up with whoever will let him lay up with them. Only thing he can do for me is use the tongue  but I wouldn't even let him do that. Trashy ass. Please, he's a pothead. Broke ass nigga. Childish ass. Child molester. Dirty. Liar. Both of them need to find a new hobby... but obsessing over me will hold them over until they do.

El Fin.

Thursday Night.

Thursdays are the shit in the Ville. We get drunk for free. Party for free. Dance for free. Show are naked ass in the great state of Texas. Oh yea, I slapped a guys tonight because he grabbed my ass. Not only did he grab it, he grabbed it multiple times after I told him not too AND said that he could grab it all he wanted. NIGGA! Do you not know who the fuck I am? I slapped him AFTER I scolded him, then I dared him to do something. Fuck broke ass niggas. You can't afford this ass. Please, be glad your lame ass can look for free.

Dating?!

I am the reason why I am single. I am the sole reason. Just me and no one else.
I was ‘supposedly’ talking to this guy but I kinda figured that after I turned down his offers for sex and I told him “No, I don’t want to spend the night with you- but I’ll spend the day” & he declined, it was kind of OVER.
I do this on purpose. I know that you don’t really want to be with me and that the only reason you put up with my shenanigans is that you think you’re gonna get some pussy. NO. I let you eat it, and you did a decent job but you had to masturbate to get yourself off afterwards because I am NOT the one.
Please, try another because this chick right here?! She’s been there and DONE that. Haven’t heard from your bitch ass in a week. Suck my dick bitch, and move around.

Too Real..

Someone told me that I was too honest for friends. People only like you when you dick ride. People only dislike you when you seemingly don't give a fuck about the rest of these fools and how they view you. I send big fuck yous out to everyone on this lovely Saturday morning. Middle finger in the air--- IDGAF STFU.. all that.

Man fuck it. I'm not real. I'm just as fake as you. I just speak my mind sometimes.

I just wanna hurt people sometimes.. is that bad?? Hmmm back to paint i go :)

Alterations?? *giggles*

remember these??

Now take a gander at this:

Apparently I "alter" my pics.. Nah. I just have ass unlike some. And hips. & seemingly 'good' genetics so that even if i do gain a few lbs, its pretty much distributed evenly throughout my body instead of accumulating on my midsection.

Shit That Annoys Me..

I rarely get Honesty Box/Formspring questions & comments anymore.. & when I do, I normally ignore recklessness lol.. Anywho, the lastest question says: "You look crazy... Are you crazy?"

*eye roll* I'm not crazy. I'm just Bee. I live in my own little world & follow my own set of rules. I do things just because. I love life & I live. What's crazy about that.

Sometimes people make comments on twitter or statements in reference to girls who are going natural. Such as "Don't say you're bald because you're going natural, yo ass just bald" "Going natural is just your excuse for not doing your hair.."

I'm NOT bald. I have way more hair than some people who have been trying to grow their hair for years. I do my hair DAILY. I never walk out the house without doing something to my head. Its not my fault that to you a wash-n-go or braid/twist out is NOT a true style because I didn't spend $$$ or hours in a salon. *eye roll*

I know they aren't talking directly to me but something it just irks me because I'm apart of the "natural community" now.

I sometimes wish that I wasn't natural so that I wouldn't feel apart of a "movement". Never wanted to be an organic mother earth type chick... That's not my style. I just wanted chemical free healthy hair. *sigh*

Okay that's enough for today. New pics?? sure :)

Sex Addiction My Ass

Now Sandra Bullock's husband is going to rehab to treat his 'sex addiction' after being caught cheating. *eye roll from hell* WTF ever! You know why you cheated. You know you won't stop. You fucked up. You're greedy. Like Tiger Woods.. Eric Benet when Halle Berry found out he cheated on her! (He later admitted that he didn't have a sex addiction; he only went because Halle wanted him to..)

Don't be greedy. Is pussy really that good? You annoy me. Addicted to sex my ass.

Fuck Sandra Rose

Sandra Rose says that Erykah Badu did her video in front of a green screen and her booty was digitally enhanced in the Window Seat video. Umm All I can say is #SitYOURASSDOWN! Why does Sandra Rose always talk shit?? She's right up there with MediaTakeOut. a screen grab doesn't mean shit. People were indeed looking at her in the video. I don't think that Miss Badu would lie about shooting the video guerilla style, one take,.. Come on now Sandra Rose! I think you're jealous of Erykah's fatty. She has had three kids. She isn't skinny anymore. The donk is natural. you can't digitally enhance a butt to jiggle that well especially when she's touching it. & if she was gonna change her body she would've gave herself bigger boobs and a few abs as well.

This is silly. I'm not gonna say anything else but.. Who ARE YOU?! I don't even visit your website. Wackness.

Ugly?

Look at this face? Now really.. You HONESTLY think I'm ugly? Pure beauty. If you disagree, cool. I don't see it when I look in the mirror.

I'm an artist. I have a unique face. I have unique features. My lips are pouty. My eyes far apart. My face is round. My cheeks are chubby. Shoot, I have a fleshy face. Lots of face. Check me out. Thank YOU.

Love yourself instead of trying to bring others down. "With yo UGLY self!" lmao..

Real Shit.

I've always been disliked. Why? Because I'm fabulous. I am my own biggest fan. I ooze confidence. I love myself more than ANYONE else. I am my favorite person. I can talk about myself ALL damn day. I love that formspring.me/BeeMichelle is giving voice to the little people who are still holding on to grudges stemming from High School, some even Middle School!

Yes, Brittney was always disliked. I won't even say HATED on because that's silly. They are just fascinated with what I'm doing or what I'm not doing. MY LIFE. Wow.

I remember having grown ass women dislike me because of the clothes I wore. Being made fun of because I wore big ass platform boots too school with mini skirts but THEN the whole 8th grade class going to Walmart & getting the imitations when they came out after Christmas break. I remember wearing stilettos almost everyday to school & treating the hallways as my own little runway-- turning the sidewalks outside to a makeshift catwalk just because I liked to walk in heels & I have a KILLER strut. AND because I knew that every guy wanted to fuck me & every bitch in the school knew that.

Everyone had that girl in their class that everyone just seemed to hate because she knew who she was & didn't give a damn about anyone's opinions. Never tried to please anyone. Did everything for myself. Lived my life according to my own rules. Walked to a badass instrumental in my head that no one else heard but me. I've always been different. I embraced that shit. At first I did want a lot of friends and as soon as I got them, I realized that people are fake as hell so I dropped them on there rear ends.

Did I ever think that I was BETTER than the next person? No. Never. I didn't come from money. My parents work hard for everything they have. Nothing was ever GIVEN to me. I had to work for it.

I did however choose to distance myself from MOST of the people I went to High School with. They were full of drama. Negative energy. Spewing hating from every pore in their body. I have a gift of reading people upon meeting them. Withing 5mins I know whose genuine & whose not. I know when you're trying to be slick and talk shit on the sly. I'm not dumb. THOSE are the people I stay away from. If I look down upon you, its only because spiritually you are BENEATH me.

You hate the fact that regardless of my size I have the potential to take your man. You hate the fact that I can gain and lose weight like THAT. You hate the fact that I don't give a flying hoot about what anyone thinks of me. You hate the fact that I am me.

I still remember the myspace profile you made about me NOT going to Spelman--- I WENT. I still remember the days when I was called a white girl because I actually enjoyed reading; I actually enjoyed writing; I actually made the honor roll & took AP classes; I actually spoke with SENSE & used correct grammar 90% of the time; I actually enjoyed LEARNING. I still remember everyone calling me a hoe because I had sex with this one guy... & then that one dude. Oops. They were friends? Hmmmm I didn't know that. Oh well. It is what it is. Then the rumors that they ran a train on me which is why I walk the way that I walk.. Hahahahaha!

There's so much more that people like to comment on that they know nothing about. Do you REALLY wanna know why I don't go to Spelman anymore? I don't like that damn school. There. Wonderful institution, just not for me. I only stayed as long as I did for the sake of my parents. Now I said fuck it. I don't want to do that with my life anymore. I want to do something else. Which is why my ass is in the GYM daily.  Its all apart of a bigger picture. I have goals in life. I want a career, you want a job. I want to be great. You settle for mediocrity. Fuck real shit, this is just Brittney Shit.

For the Homies locked up..

I'm supposed to write my homie in Jail.. But i haven't yet. smh. I'm a bad friend. I just need stamps and an envelope.. I said I was gonna write like two weeks ago. I feel bad. Damn. I'm so gangsta. I have fam locked up for murder #nshit.. Oh lawd...

But I'm gangsta myself. I wish I was so bad. Damn. Guttah.

I won't say Free SoNSo because he did the crime & I do believe that you must do the time..

But I also think that not being able to afford a GOOD lawyer is the main reason why many of my fellow black brothers & sisters are locked up for years off some stupid drug case but a fuckin murderer can get off with just 15yrs.. A rapist/child molester sometimes only gets 3-5yrs. SMH. Oh yeah, but only if they're white. Aint that some shit?

That's the only problem I have with this fucked up justice system. Its not really about if you're guilty or not.. Its about if your lawyer is smart enough to get you out of trouble or prove you're insane, or that their isn't enough EVIDENCE smh. Bitches. White America.. White America.

What I'm Tired Of...

I'm sooo over everyone calling Gabourey Sidibe "Precious". Or saying that any overweight girl LOOKS like Precious. Or to make fun of Miss Sidibe because of her weight. Just stop it. Its not funny. At all. Grow up.

Go Gabby!!!!

Use Protection

Sorry to everyone who can no longer view my tweets without following me.. They are protected. Tired of these lurkers. If you don't like me or what I have to say/tweet-- don't follow me. Don't visit my blog. Don't send me questions on formspring. Better yet, the formspring will be taken down tonight. You don't know me. If you have anything negative to say, please leave a message here. Fuck you.

Smoke Sum Bitch

Sometimes I like to do things others may view as BAD or unattractive. I clearly don't care. If I feel like smoking I will smoke. If I feel like getting drunk on my ass I will be slizzard off that damn goose! That's just me. If a guy wants me, he must first accept me at my worse... No makeup, puffy eyed, morning breath, wild hair, ashy toed-- ALL OF THAT. lol. If he doesn't like smokers-- he can't smoke. If he doesn't like drinkers then he CANT drink. If he expects me to be a virgin, he must be a virgin. lol

All I'm saying is.. I like to do shit. A lot of shit. Unhealthy shit but I feel like Wayne. I can get killed in a car crash tomorrow.. if my lifestyle doesn't kill me something else will. 

He aint shit.

Being that its Black History Month i really don't want to say Niggas Aint Shit.. Just all bad. Okay, so there was this guy who found me on facebook (surprise surprise) & decided that he needed my number. okay, I gave it to him. We texted back & forth where he proceeded to feed me alll of the bullshit that niggas feed you when they are trying to initially get at you. Okay.. I didn't believe ONE blip of it. So he really wanted to be my man. YOu know he was "looking for a serious, relationship..." blah blah blah. & this is right at the cusp of me accepting the fact that I shall remain single until the end of the world. hmph. Anywho, we hung out once. We were supposed to have a date but somehow ended up back at his place.. mmmmhmmm. Okay so he wanted to take a nap.. then invited me to nap with him. red flag again. This lead to some pretty decent head. & NO sex. bc i saw his peen & it was not remarkable to say the least. (plz forgive the typos, my hands are frozen..) So... FFWD a few days & low & behold he has a GIRLFRIEND on facebook now. & guess what?! They are in LOVE!!!! Awwwwww. How sweet. I mean, were you really trying to form a relationship with me or you just wanted sex? dudes.. if its just lovin that u want be honest. smh. so yeah. that nigga aint shit.

Fuck you

My hair. I still get upset when dudes try to talk shit to me ABOUT my hair after I've turned them down nicely. This brings out HOOD Bee. Ghetto Bee. Neck rollin, shit talkin, "I know you aint tryna talk about somebody with ya ugly ass! Boy don't get mad cuz nobody wants you! Get the fuck outta here..." etc. Ugh. It irks me. I love my hair. My nappy hair that is wayyy prettier than your hair or your mother's hair or your daughter's hair. I just gotta say that MY hair is beautiful. Even when I don't do shit to it. BAM.