Hair Nappy but im Happy :)

So my hair isn't symmetrical but it has character. I call her Chloe. She is stuck up & only likes the best-- and speaks her MIND. You don't like her naps?? She will devour you completely.

Listen..

You can't always get mad at the other woman.. Yeah she might be a homewrecker but you're still with that dishonest fucker. Come on now.. How many times must he cheat before you stop claiming "all these hoes tryna take my man"? He has to be throwing something out there for them to bite. Everyone isn't OBSESSED with your man.

You Oughta Know..

im in one of those moods.. Alanis went in on Joey from Full House. I feel these lyrics. I have since elementary school when i didn't even know wtf she was talkin about.

Oh & did you know that Beyonce covered it on the I am.. Tour??




just another reason to love it ;) So here are the lyrics. ENJOY. Listen. Feel the intensity of Bey's voice.. then listen to Alanis. Download it. Its worth it...

I want you to know, that I'm happy for you
I wish nothing but the best for you both
An older version of me
Is she perverted like me
Would she go down on you in a theatre
Does she speak eloquently
And would she have your baby
I'm sure she'd make a really excellent mother

'cause the love that you gave that we made wasn't able
To make it enough for you to be open wide, no
And every time you speak her name
Does she know how you told me you'd hold me
Until you died, till you died
But you're still alive

And I'm here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away
It's not fair to deny me
Of the cross I bear that you gave to me
You, you, you oughta know

You seem very well, things look peaceful
I'm not quite as well, I thought you should know
Did you forget about me Mr. Duplicity
I hate to bug you in the middle of dinner
It was a slap in the face how quickly I was replaced
Are you thinking of me when you fuck her?

=/

Dear Solange,

Can you teach me how to DJ? I wanna be like you when I grow up.. How come I wasn't invited to your party though? Its all good, just have a champagnechronicnightcap with me and all will be forgiven.

Love, Bee


PS

Tell yo sista I said "HEYYYYYYY"

Happy Holidays from the Staff @ Vividly Bland :)

For Christmas i got something. I forgot to blog about it BUT i finally got my laptop. Dell Inspiron. Pink.. I wanted purple tho but PINK will do. Her name is Pinky & I am the Brain.. I was so excited. I wanted a zebra print snuggie though. lol..

I ate good. I looked rough. and I didnt do shit. Haven't been to Hville in awhile. I need to visit my fam soon.

No NYE plans. Im too cool for that.

soo.. in case internet goes out again

***HAPPY HOLIDAYS TO YOU AND YOURS FROM THE STAFF AT VIVIDLY BLAND***

yes i know im the only staff. but me, myself, & i wish you the bestest.

I Would Die 4 U

People never believe that I listen to shit other than Beyonce. They dont

believe that I LOVE Prince Rogers Nelson.. Mr Purple Rain Himself. He's one of the reasons why i LOVE the color purple.. & you know i LOVe my MIEUSICK

i have good music taste i believe. im addicted to love songs. mainly the love i'd die for kill for or the the love that hurts you.. or when the one that you love hurts you.

I Would Die 4 U speaks to me tho.. YOu can't youtube this. YOu have to BUY this. Yes.. Good music MUST be paid for :)

Barbie Bitch

In 2006 I was in the Miss Essence pageant *i didnt win of course.. im not pageantry enough*..

During practice we had fun question day to help us loosen up and blah blah blah..

My question was: "Would you like to have Barbie as a friend?"

My answer: "NO, I would not like to have Barbie as a friend because she is plastic and thats "fake" to me.. So having her as a friend would be the equivalent of having a fake friend."

Everyone said "oooh that was good.. i nevuh thought of that before..."

Those SAME pageant Girls are Now screaming out Im BARBIE this-- Sasha Minaj Beatrice Minaj Peaches Minaj..

Why would you want to be an inanimate fake lil barbie? why would you wanna be a follower??

oh yeah-- follow ME: @BeeMichelle

Love is blind..

So william loves. me.

i have proof..

But nobody knows it but me..

I tried to tell yall that LOVE is blind.

Ugh.. Annoying.

What do I hate the most?? People who call me when they don't want anything. Yes I know you're bored and YES I know you just wanna chat BUT I don't like small talk. If you are bored & just wanna talk about nothing, just text me instead.. Thats pretty much all you need. Better yet; If you're really bored just read my blog.. Or get on twitter/facebook. DONT CALL ME!!!

It's really irksome to hold the damn phone for that freaking long.

a tribe called Ves

I know people with great blogs that I LOVE to read...

http://hartofthecityy.blogspot.com/

Her name is Stacy. & she loves to blog. She writes about 10 a day. Random yet interesting...

you should read it. i enjoy it.

MEDIATAKEOUT SUCKS

yes i said it. mediatakeout sucks. just a bunch of opinionated bloggers who LOOOVE to report rumors or random stories without checking the facts..

come on now. if it isn't true then dont post it. i can easily be an "inside source veryyyy close to the celebrity". and im not.

im not reading that shit anymore..

gonna start a new blog called mediatakeoutsucks.com

dnt steal my idea..

Progress My Ass...

"We haven't progressed much since Tupac died. 'Brenda's gotta baby but Brenda's barely gotta BRAIN'. guess progress is a slow process smh"

This was my latest tweet. It made me wonder as soon as I posted it...

How far have we REALLY come in the last 15 years? Okay so we have a Black President-- A big accomplishment but that isn't really solving any problems. We still have a wide abundance of insecure girls who feel that they must have sex with a guy for him to care about and LOVE her. There are still father's who are not taking care of their children. There are still too many women who have kids and do NOT know who the father of their babies' are.

The Maury Show may be full of fuckery but it shows EXACTLY what is wrong with our country and OUR people. Women testing 3+ men and ALL of them aren't the father?! I don't know whats more upsetting; the fact that you had sex with so many men in that small time frame that you don't know who could be the father or that you're having unprotected sex with all of these men. This is not 1980. Everyone is fully aware of HIV & AIDS and other sexually transmitted diseases/infections.

Instead of testing for DNA, maury should give all of the people on his show a blood/urine test and see exactly what kind of 'situation' they are really working with. Thats all that i'm thinking about when i watch that show..

As women you must take the initiative to protect yourself if he doesn't seemed that worried about it. You can carry condoms in your purse. Hell you carry everything else in there. I even have condoms in my backpack-- you never know! Better yet, if he doesn't want to use protection Don't have sex with him-- Don't have sex with a guy you are not exclusively involved with.

Maybe I should not sound so preachy because I am no better than anyone. I have had unprotected sex before. I have had sex with a guy I am not exclusively involved with. I have been that girl JUST like you. I'm just trying to be real.

Maybe if a little girl had a father who told her she was beautiful everyday she wouldn't feel the need to hear a man say it while he's inside of her to make her feel life she is worth it. Maybe if a mother talked to her daughter openly & honestly she would know better and wouldn't fall for those stupid lines these guys tell. Maybe a father should be a better example for his son so that he can know what a real man is.. Maybe just maybe.

IDGAF..

There are some people that I love. Just for the sake of liking something. I've talked about her before-- I love Solange. Now I love Beyonce more.. but ever since she had those red braids & was in Bow Wow's puppy love video. Call me crazy but I do. Especially since she cut all her hair off. I like people who just dont give a fuck.

And this is why she is the shit. She doesn't care that everybody hated the cut or said she needed an edge up. Blahhhh. I feel the same way sometimes when ppl tell me I need to get a perm or STRAIGHTEN my hair. No I don't. I like my fro. If I want straight hair i can BUY some. I don't need your acceptance, praise or compliments. I think I should name my hair..

Hey weezy..b

I go out & old ladies like my ensemble..
I can not drive to save my life.
Even when I wear a belt, a wee bit of crack shows in my jeans so I end up saying fuck it and make sure i wear full bottom panties that are cute.
I hate dieting so I just but empire waist dresses and call it a day. Hips aren't in the equation.

Most of my dresses, regardless of width, end up becoming more fitted instead of flowy at the hips..

I kind of like Lil Wayne. Reminds me of my childhood.
First time I heard the block is hot-- i met brandon :)

soldier reminds me of ahem.. Mike & B. lmao..


the list goes on & on..

lollipop is freshman year @ Spelman.


ahhh memories.

Bee/Bria/Pia??

I was supposed to have been named Piaget but mother didnt like it.

Wouldn't I be SO cool if mother would have named me something original; like Piaget??

This one dude calls me Bria. I dont' like Bria because it reminds me of Bria Myles (Drake's old thang...) & Bria Murphy (Pleasure P's new thang/Eddie daughter).

I think im just under Bria in his phone so his ex/gf wont be able to get my number & confront me. ooopsies.

I feel like changing my name to Piaget [piyah-jay].

What do you think?

Piaget Michelle. ??? Everybody call's themselves Bee now. & they don't even like bees like me..

they dont want a tattoo of bees on their bodies like ME!! smh..

fuck it. Ima stick to Brittney.

I drink at least two margaritas a day...

something about Jose Cuervo gets me going. I can use any tequila tho.. but that darn Gold Curevo is my fave :)

I Love my fro...

And you should too. =]

My Routine..

whenever i get online i do the SAME thing.

check my twitter-- @BeeMichelle

check facebook-- Bee Michelle Booker

check necolebitchie.com

check mediatakeout.com

read youknowyoudeadazzwrong.blogspot.com

skim thru fml.com

go back to twitter & facebook

textsfromlastnight.com

then LAUGH & giggle & text..

ALL these tabs are open at the same time. multi tasking..

The Other Woman..

Have you ever been the "other woman"?? I have. I can admit that full heartedly. A couple of times. I always wondered why I only attracted the guys who already had girlfriends but I soon realized that I was the one who seemed to ONLY want to be with the guy who was already in an established relationship. What was wrong with me that I only wanted to be THAT girl?

I didn't know this then but now its very easy for me to see why. My own insecurities made me do the things I did. I needed some validation from the opposite sex to feel beautiful; to feel wanted. And what better way to get that validation then from taking some guy away from his girlfriend??

This was successful at first when you didn't even have to use sex to get a guy. You know back in the days when looks alone could make him say damn, you're wayy "badder" than my current--- let me upgrade.

After that it has to be known that sex will be used to get a man.. Yeah you THINK this works until you realize that no matter how good your pussy is, he still probably wont leave his gf from you. WHY?!

Easy. He has the best of both worlds. Loving relationship with his boo & great sex from you. What ELSE could he want? I know! RIMS! & im sure your vagina isn't 22' or better.

I remember when I met 21; I was a sophomore in high school. Not really one to ask questions like "do you have a gf" because I was soo excited that he was older, had his own car, could pick me up when he wanted to, let me drive the whip, roll up with me.. etc. I mean if you have read my blog you pretty much know about me and 21. smh..

Initially I didn't know he had a gf but by the time I found at he had one I was too deep in it just to quit. This is how I became the other woman my default. So many lines I was fed. Main reason being that I was technically too young to be with him but when I turned 18 we'd make it "official". He wasn't with her anymore.. Only with her because she was pregnant.. etc. ALL the bull shit. Bad thing is she called my phone so many times and he always had to call & persuade me not to tell her. Even after our physical relationship ended and we were just friends.. He had to bribe me not to tell lol. If I wouldn't have opened up my big mouth about keying his car, his girl would have NEVER known that I was indeed the Brittney he was seeing-- Not some white girl @ SHSU. smh

I knew better. Should have just nipped it in the bud from the beginning but I was in it for good i guess. This caused drama to go OOOON & OOON for years even after I QUIT communicating with 21. Hell if were to write a blog about her today she'd be calling me tomorrow trying to start something even though she is no longer with him.

Sometimes you become the "other woman" by accident. Yes I have been this woman too. I know SHAME on me!! smh but its not entirely my fault. Okay so it was. Smh. It all started with this friend I had. We were so cool. I knew he had a girlfriend whom he talked about all the time and he knew I was doing whatever i was doing back then. We talked about everything. He was one of my closest guy friends. Of course with us sharing everything, sex came up and he too became sexually attracted to me. I had a crush on him too but I never crossed that line. I kept my feelings to myself because I knew that wasn't right. *sigh* flash forward to one drunken night & everything changed. We both became so drunk that innocent dancing turned into groping and grinding and next thing I know we're in his car making out. Man oh man.. that led to us going back to his room & having sex. Which then turned into us having sex again.. & again.. & again.. You get the picture?? I thought it was 'ok' because he & his gf were on a break..

But then that break was over I basically gave him the ultimatuum. "Dump her or no more sex with me" It came to that POINT. Of course this story is a tad bit different than most. You see he told me how he WISHED he knew me first-- he always had a crush on me.-- if things were different he'd be with me-- he wants to be with me but he still loves her & they've been together soo long. Yeah I heard all of those lines. Fell for em too. I was becoming too involved again.

In the end you'll be happy to know that I didn't have sex with him while he was with his gf anymore until way after they broke up. Even though he broke up with his girlfriend, i mean his girlfriend broke up with HIM smh he NOW wasn't really wanting to be in a relationship. Of course not!! He was in one for years! why would he jump into ANOTHER one. He can be free & do whatever. He thought that i'd be happy he was single. Nope. Still wasn't with me. SMH

I could write about this forever but then you wouldn't buy the book.. "The Other Woman" coming soon... a Personal memoir.. :) we haven't even touched on musical influences, media, ettc.. family matters. all those other contributors.

I ooze sex?

im addicted to boobs.

just because i want implants doesn't mean im insecure about my boobs. i wrote a whoooole post bout my insecurities.. well most of em; boobs aren't on the list..

im more insecure about my ass than my boobs. WHY?!


i always think that a guy is only interested in me because 1) he heard that I LOVE sex & thinks that translates to im easy..
2) he likes my ass

Its an automatic assumption because majority of the men i meet comment on my body within the first 5mins of conversing with me if not the first 5sec they see me. smh

somebody told me its bc of the clothes i wear. i say bullshit. i get more attention in sweats and a hoodie. there is no hiding my ass.

If i wear a short dress, im just showing off my legs. low cut shirt its the B cups. Jeans & Tee?? hell regular lookin ass. baggy clothes. whatever.. i still get attention. my clothes dont make or break me. you're stupid.

you see me; you wanna fuck. i get it.

Lesson Learned

Im tired of being asked why im single. Like i've said before, its not like i meet guys everyday. smh. Is it wrong for me to have some guy friends who Im not even interested in like that? Just because I think that he may possibly like me it does NOT mean that he wants to be with me or that I want to be with him.

If i were to be with every guy who likes me I'd be unhappy because I don't have mutual feelings of attraction towards them. Is it my fault? NO! Not at all. I've eased up on my list or requirements but I wont just say yes to someone because I dont want to be single. Im not desperate. smh

I dont like being single but i mean why is it my fault that nobody is quite right for me?? I know i've been single for awhile but damn.. I try lol.

If there is any lesson I've learned its that just because your friends can fall in love and be in a relationship with a guy they started out purely physical with doesnt mean you'll have the same luck. "why buy the cow..."

Insecurities

I wish my skin was evenly toned. It irks me I have spots on my cheek, forehead and chin. I would never wear foundation if i didnt have those irky marks. Im always breaking out on my chin and forehead tho. smh.. i scrub my face soo hard until its red all over and i look like im sunburnt.. it never seems to be clean enough. you stupid white heads. and the skin products dont improve my skin.. just makes it worse.. ugh. curse you gabrielle union with your flawless evenly toned skin. and mother with your flawless skin.

I wish the gap between my two front teeth would go away again. I tried to get braces but i couldn't. Why? Because I'd end up with spaced out or stacked teeth for years and years all to close ONE gap that isn't even a MM wide. I know its there tho. It closed up for a good two yrs and just came back recently. wtf? I hate it. I really do.

I wish I could get rid of the stretch marks on my hip and ass. Reminds me that regardless of how skinny i get, those bitches will always be there. Its not my fault that Im juicy fruit. I dont know how i got them. they just popped up one day. I even considered getting tat'd over it. smh

I wish i could get rid of the fat around my belly. I wish I could control my eating and work out more. I wish I wish I wish.. I'll keep the ass and thighs and cellulite if only the tummy would go away. thats all..

I wish i didnt have to straighten out my kinky curls. I love my fro but i dont like how fat my face looks now so im straightening it out bc of my own insecurities. my fro is beautiful.. I love my coils. I just dont like that I look more chubby with my fro =[

These Two are So Gay...

There's alot that I just dont understand at times. Two different guys.. both are proving that they are indeed sooo gay. ugh. FML

It's you; You always seem to come back at the oddest times. wtf is up with you?? ughh One minute you're like "i love you & i know you love me... Why don't you move in with me rent free?" & then i look at your facebook a couple of hours later and i see you're in "LOVE" with your girlfriend too. Hmmm i mean, feed me those lines boy. Ironically enough you changed your relationship status AFTER i said i didn't wanna shack up. Its cool tho. I will still be in LA with or without your free rent offer.

and then there is YOU. you know who. you complain about not being able to see me for soo long and when im finally within five miles of your residence, you want to pick a fight. you want to be a bitch. you want to be the ass that you are. Like wtf I look like going to the movies with you when I have to buy MY ticket, DRIVE myself there and back, pick out the movie.. I mean damn, why are you even there?? I can easily go to the movies by myself if im gonna have to pay and drive anyways. thats the ONLY reason why you were asked. i dont like driving.

Its just so annoying with you because the issue of money always seems to come up. I have never asked you for MONEY unlike other girls. Also unlike those other chicks, i refuse to buy you shit either. Maybe that is the problem. If you want me to pay for your company I might as well have one thats finer than you. Hell if ima pay, ima make it worthwhile...

brenda's got a baby

i straightened my hair today. dont have a cow now.. just flat iron'd it. got tired of the fro. trust she will be back again sooner than you think. I just had to iron out the kinks of my life metaphorically so i ironed out the kinks in my hair literally. You really dont know the day i've had.

I had a feeling that I should get married and have a kid. Oookay so the forced proposal went nowhere but i did find a hand full of guys who were willing to impregnate me RIGHT now. Hmm funny.

I cant even find a movie date let alone a guy whose willing to be in a monogamous relationship with me but I can finda plent of dudes who want to be the father of my unfertilized little egg. REally now?!

What has the world come to?? AM i that bad of a person?? can't even get a date.. but a baby? wow. my life sucks.

A Nigga That Held On N *Yawwwn*

I cried today. Not like real tears.. but the worst kind of crying when you are so torn up inside that your body cant even produce a tear or utter a sound. Yea that's exactly how I was. Men always make me forget how strong I am when they play with my emotions. Maybe not even "play" with my emotions, but just tug at my heart strings. Okay maybe not really "tug" at my heart strings but have me open up. I can't open up because being hurt scares me. It never fails; everytime I am completely open my heart begins to break. Its crumbling as I type this.

WHY? you ask...

Well.. there was this guy, you know THAT guy. I was trying to be whatever he wanted me to be. Do whatever he wanted me to do.. Just so I could be "one with him". Hmmm.. Well after all these years I've realized taht we are still at this same place. I have to let go sometimes.. but its so hard to. I love him. He loves me (he says so at least..) but we can't be together. We never will. Ugh. Don't play with my emotions. Make a commitment or else.

I could be that girl who physically forces a guy to put a ring on it but I mean it isn't worth it if he still wants to go out and cheat. Age doesn't mean shit. It'll never change.