Bee Is Back!

I've been gone for a minute.. but now I am back! I've just been so busy. Moved in new place. Working my buns off. I turned 24. My bestfriend got engaged on 9.30.12!!! I love BLACK LOVE. So... Since the theme of September turned from horrible to amazing in a matter of moments, I've decided to make a change. Love is the theme of my life. The fact that I was sooo genuinely happy for someone else... it gave me hope for love. Like the Maya Angelou quote said "For those who have given up on love I say 'Trust Life A Little Bit'". Trust life. I am trusting life. I am focused on making my life THIS much better.

Currently addicted to pinterest. Planning Tanya's wedding. Bridal Shower/Bachelorette Party. AND I will begin writing again soon.

I refuse to let another human make me feel anything but Happy & Loved. I cannot give anyone else that much control over me.

Bee patient.


Be patient love... This could be us.

2012 Spring-Summer Pics

End of An Era

... Yes ladies and gentlemen, it is truly the end of an era. My [x] year long drought of singleness has come to an end. I--- have-- a --- Man. A real life man. No, not Sebastian.. an actual boyfriend.. but since i'm 23, I feel like "boyfriend" is a rather childish term.

But yes. Besides working and searching for a new job/apt, I have been working on my relationship with B. And I love him. Everything is going great.

Wait, no no.. not "love" him.. but like, i like him alot and we mesh well together.

Anywho.. I'm living. Going to get back to blogging again soon.. I promise. Until then I guess i could upload pics.

<3

Hair Boredom

Since I wrote about the "natural nazis" and women not accepting their natural hair.. I guess I should update you on my current hair. I'm bored with it. I'm this close to shaving my head. lol. My hair in its natural states barely touches my jawline but once straightened, it hits just below my shoulder blades. Shrinkage is a bitch. I attempted to DYE my hair blonde with a box dye-- didn't work at all. Just turned my roots some awful shade of brown. I then attempted to get hi lights with this kit. Nope. Only one strip of BROWN at the back of my head. So, I had to buckle down and... BLEACH my hair. I was scared at first so I only bleached a small section in the front. Lawd, my hair is full of about 5 different colors right now. But I kind of like it. :)
IDK.. gives my hair some interesting flair. I'm not finished yet. Somehow I stumbled upon THIS photo:

 

and now THIS is the look I kinda wanna go for. The Cruella De Ville look I guess. A skunk effect. But it shall be slightly different and Bee'd up. 

It's been 3 years since I cut off my hair. It's about damn time I added color to it. I grew so bored of henna and the red shades. I need something bold. Something to make me stand out again. 

Natural Hair Nazis

I woke up this morning planning on purchasing new products for my naturally curly hair. As always, before I decided to buy I READ allllll the comments/reviews women left about each product. That's when I noticed it---  some naturals do NOT love their natural texture! *Gasps* Could it be that these super naturals are actually trying to buy products that will somehow magically turn their hair to look like the little mixed chick with the perfect spirally ringlets on the advertisement? 


I literally died from laughter. These women are upset bc they expected their hair to look curly, not nappy. smh. You'd think that after doing the Big Chop & working with your hair for at least a year, you would realize that no product can turn those naps to curls. And that is perfectly fine. The same logic applies to women with wavy hair. That curly pudding will not turn those waves to spirals either. 


Sometimes natural women are too obsessed with "curl patterns" & defining them... If you dont have curls naturally, no moisturizer will help.Get a texturizer or relaxer or something. Obviously your natural hair isn't what you wanted. sheesh. That's why these heffas wet their hair everyday. Relentlessly trying to get that "wet n wavy" look. Then slather on gel or some $40 creme that they think will magically turn that fro into a head of bouncy curls. Seemingly blind to the fact that those products are supposed to elongate curls & eliminate frizz--- not create a curl pattern your ass doesn't have.

Let's be real.. you went natural because you thought that your hair would look a certain way. And now it doesn't so you're MAD... but pride won't let you relax it again.. so you must spend $100s of dollars on products that you assume will turn your hair curly--- and unfortunately that will NEVER happen.

Its just SO hilarious.these are the same women who look down on those who relax their hair as conforming to "European standards of beauty" .. and they don't even accept their own natural hair. Always looking for a way to get that "mixed girl with curly hair" look. oh girl.

At the end of the day, embrace YOUR hair! It's your hair. If it is curls that you desire, do whatever you please to achieve those curls. But do not for one second think you are any better than those women who pick up flat irons, curlers, perms, relaxers, etc to achieve a desired look. 

Spring 2012

As you can see, i've attempted to go BLONDE this year. Details soon. :)

 when you run out of shot glasses, just use measuring cups -____- #ratchet

my curls still here. Shrinkage still a bitch tho.

#BirthdayCake

Blow outs = LOVE

Tiger Stripe

Walk Away

Moving soon. Needing to get away. Need a change. I'm VERY excited about this change of scenery :)
So I'm guessing this flick is symbolic of me walking away from my past; from all the drama, the stress, the madness, the fuckery-- everything.

A couple of weeks ago I spent an hour at the beach one night just thinking. I walked barefoot through the sand, letting the water splash around my legs.. and I just thought. I cleansed my soul that night. I let everything out. I felt so rejuvenated afterwards but very much open & emotional.

Since then I've been  guarding my heart more. I've let go of so much.. still holding on to some. I just want to be happy again. If that takes continuing to walk further & further away, then so be it. I will continue to walk this long & treacherous path of life.. even if I have to walk alone. Bey said: "I'm known to walk alone but I'm alone for a reason." I feel as if my reason for walking alone is that I need to find myself. I need to figure out exactly who I am before I can attempt to link arms with another.

It's hard to walk away. And I walk away in 6inch platform pumps.

Hello Brooklynn

I don't think I've blogged about my baby yet.. but here she is. My goddaughter; Brooklynn. Even though I didn't physically have her, I swear she is actually my child. 

As you can see, I'm completely obsessed with my 2 month old baby Bee :)

Only At PV

I promise i hollered when I 'seent' this.

Honey Blonde My Ass

I attempted to dye my hair HONEY BLONDE, & this is what happened. 

So what have we learned here? You cannot go blonde with a black girl box dye. lol. Especially if your hair is healthy like mine. Gahhh. Well at least I have brown/red hair.. i think.