vividly bland

Just now realizing what I should have known long ago... You really aint shit & you will never change. Why did it take me so long to see this? Why did I fall for the simplest shit? "Thinking bout you..." "I want you..." "I miss you..." -_______- & I was doing so much better. Awesome without you. I knew we were cool with not being anything... but what happened? You had to break my guard down again. I'm just so tired. Your half ass apologies. You're sorry for making me feel worthless & less of a woman? REALLY?!  So you know you made   me feel like shit & what did you do? Nothing but LIE. Why must you lie? Why can't you be honest for once.