Monday, May 30, 2011

Mediocrity had to have killed the cat..

Mediocrity had to have killed the cat.. Curiosity only made the cat smarter.. wiser. Without curiosity, we would still be living in caves.. and we wouldn't be so pretty. *sigh* 

I hate not being the absolute best.. and if you aren't going to be the best at something, WHY even do it? Grr. Strive for perfection *cheer voice* 

Mediocrity KILLED the cat.

Hungover Confessions: The Morning After

The Picture We Never Took

Dont you hate it when you accidentally press "record" when trying to take a picture? *sigh* And don't you hate it when you're drunk off that Ciroc and decide to do outrageous renditions of No Hands? smh...

Saturday, May 28, 2011

Tweeted Thoughts

Yes, I like to lay on your chest because hearing you heartbeat helps me sleep. smh
This is how I know cold, heartless Bee has been killed. I miss those days.
remembering when we kept it all basic.. i want to go back so bad I can taste it.

The Weeknd - Rolling Stone

RIP Gil Scott-Heron

The Revolution Will Not Be Televised.

The Weeknd - House of Balloons

New ish. Go to & download for FREE. I'm actually excited about music again. Miguel, Jhene, The Weeknd?? Plus new Drake & Beyonce!? This will be a nice summer. Anywho, thanks to my Canadian future husband, Aubrey Drake Graham for introducing me to the Weeknd. I'm like a month late but you guys know i WORK 40 hours a week now.... but anywho--- My Favorite is "What You Need". Listen below.

Wednesday, May 25, 2011


Beyonce's 1+1

1+1 - Beyoncé by HDMI44

man.. you know Bey loves Jay-Z!! When she performed this on American Idol, the emotion was right there. I'm like fuck this single shit man. I need me something real like that.


Beyonce - Till The End Of Time.mp3


Now you guys know that I HATE "Girls". I was waiting for this new Beyonce sound that they were talking about & hyping up for months.... And the first single just didn't do it for me. Now End Of Time is actually a new refreshing sound. It does however use the same sample as the Drake song "Dreams Money Can Buy" does [Jai Paul--- google him.] **Is this a new trend? Diddy Dirty Money sampled "Major Lazer"; the same sample for Girls) I feel like there's some horns.. drums.. Feels very summertime love anthem. So African. I kind of love it. Listen & tell me if you agree. :)

Beyonce 2011 Billboard Performance "Run The World (Girls)"

still hate the song but i LOVE the performance.

Tuesday, May 24, 2011


Happy Beyonce Appreciation Day!!

I'm Single.. And On the Road to Becoming Happy

Yes, I'm single. I've been single for awhile. I don't mind at all though. I'm finally about to do what single women are supposed to.. HAVE fun. I'm starting my hardcore summer diet again after memorial day.. I've somewhat been doing it but I haven't jumped in head first yet. I've lost 10lbs without noticing it. People are noticing that I'm slimming down... I really wasn't trying to lose weight. I just don't like having so much ass that I can't wear the things I want without looking like a whore.. Or that my stomach is flabby. I just want to be Healthy. I'm no longer sick.. I can smell again. I need to get back on my grind.
I move next week. I'm starting school soon. I just need to get back to the Brittney I've missed. I HAVE to be the person that I'm not right now. :) So that you'll see that Bee is awesome.

Sunday, May 22, 2011

How could you leave me? I thought that you needed me. When the world got to much and you pleaded with me. Who helped you immediately? How speedy of me. How could you deny me so vehemently?

FUCK Customer Service

Most days I HATE my job. Like I honestly wish that I could choke everyone who asks me these stupid questions about the remodel, why things have changed, why are prices so high.. blah blah blah. I don't know. I don't know. I mean, I kinda do but you know whyyyy the fuck they're remodeling. Fuck your opinions. Call the big wigs, leave me be!
I feel like I constantly have to remind people that this job is simply temporary... I'm not working here for the rest of my life. this is not my fucking career. This is a job. that's it. A JOB. The customer isn't always right. You can kiss all of my ass. No fucks are given about you or how you feel.

El fucking FIN.

All Up In My Feelings, Texas

"Cuz I can't forget your ways.. I still remember our first kiss" -- Tweet [Smoking Cigarettes]
I could write a fucking Odyssey like epic poem based on how I'm feeling right now. I can't believe I'm still here and this is the final outcome. Believing what he told me even though his actions clearly said otherwise. Holding on by a fucking microscopic thread... while he didn't even fight for me. He got what he wanted. It wasn't me obviously. I'm an adult so I can admit it. Bee did not win this round, this fight. Another knock out. And frankly, I don't want to fight anymore... I don't want to think about what could have been or what we had. He must really LOVE her and not me. That's the hardest thing to get. He doesn't care about me. AT all. I'm just another. Simply another. I need to just start over.. but I don't want to. "I did it all for love, I did it ALL. I traded it all for ya, I traded all" There honestly wasn't one measly thing that I wouldn't and didn't do for him. If he asked, & it was within my grasp-- el fin. No questions. But now he has to think about me whenever he listens to his music, looks in his mirror.. wears that hat---- yea its ALL me. I did that. And all I ever wanted was a thank you. Just a simple thank you. *sigh*
At the end of the day, we just want to feel wanted, needed, & loved. If you can't make me feel that way then why hold on?
Just stuck on the fact that he didn't even try to fight for me.. my love was worthless to him.

Saturday, May 21, 2011

Has the Queen Dethroned Herself?

Can you imagine my utter embarrassment when I FIRST heard the new Beyonce "track"?! I-- THE biggest Beyonce fan in the state of Texas. I call Bey my fuckin SISTER... & then I heard "(GIRLS) Who Run the World" or whatever... Grrr. I damn near pissed my pants. I HATE that young shit. I thought after a few listens, I'd love it. Eh, not even. *sigh* I was stanning HARD for my girl. The weeks of anticipation. I got a new summer weave. I just knew I was gonna be doing Bey choreo hard in the club... Even after seeing the video I was thinking that Bey could do a little bit MORE. I expected so much from my girl. Just knew she was gonna do it BIG for Summer 2011.. Now i'm here looking lost. Folks coming up to me asking how I feel about the new Bey & i'm just like "Trash". This supposed new sounds like some of her old shit with a different beat. Think about it. I'm all for girl power but I am a GROWN woman. I wanted to hear some grown woman music. Not some shit a junior high school student should be singing. I am NO longer a girl. *sigh* Have I musically outgrown my favorite artist??  Say it aint so! Then to add salt to my opened bey wound, Kelly Rowland has officially SLAYED Bey on the charts for the FIRST time... EVER. I like Motivation wayyyy more than Girls. I'm writing an OPEN letter to the Queen asking her to release another single ASAP.Like Yesterday. How the fuck did Beyonce dethrone her fuckin self?! SMH.

Dreams Money Can Buy - Drake

Don't fuck with me.. New Drake. Sounds reminiscent of the Old Drizzy I fell in love with. I like. Excited for the new Drake "Take Care".. still upset at the shit i'm hearing from my girl Bey. Must be a Drake summer. *sigh* And I JUST got a weave.

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Zan With That Lean Part 2

I know.. I'm not the one who usually likes shit like this.. but for some odd reason I'm feeling this "vibe". Maybe because I know what Zan is.. & errebody knows what Lean is. Its funny. I enjoy the beat. I just wanna be high & listen to this shit...

Thursday, May 12, 2011

Beezy Like To Smoke, Drizzy Like To Smoke

 *sings "We'v got something in common"* Hahahahahaha...
I never smoked because it was "cool". I just did it because--i do what the fuck I WANT. Yea, its bad for my lungs but so is 98% of the food we eat. Oh fucking well. Granted I haven't smoked in months... but yea.

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

I Deactivated My Facebook

I finally deactivated my facebook. I just felt like I had to censor myself TOO much. I have young girls as well as older folks on there who read into EVERYTHING I say. Can't be me without someone commenting on it. Tired of my daddy telling me that i'm stealing cars and driving off to see niggas in other cities because I post a status saying: "Got the car tonight yet nowhere to go... Hmmmm need to paint the city purple". Also, I'm thinking about weening away from my twitter as well. I mean, when you have some tranny scrolling down your timeline reading shit you wrote a month prior talking bout "you was tawkin bout meh". Bitch, if you don't sit ALL THE fuck down. *eye roll* I'm just tired of social networking. I miss blogging. I miss the intimacy of the blog. Saying what I want. Not having to see others opinions unless it's in a comment. Being free to move about the cabin of the internet. I miss the literary aspect of it. I miss it all... *sigh* I miss writing man.

but anywho, I also accidentally uploaded a pic of my ass to facebook. smh. I was looking for this other pic and forgot where I was and double clicked on the cake shot. Pathetic! This is up there with when I accidentally texted a family member about swallowing (,-_-) Bejeezus I need guidance. Lawd help the chirren & help ME!

Also, i just spent all of my free time keeping up with this guy.... smh. Watching his every move. I need to quit stalking niggas. Therefor, the facebook HAD to go. Maybe I'll bring it back... maybe.

My Drunk Anthems

When I'm drunk, I don't give a fuck about morals. I just want to pop my pussy. Is that bad? I'm like fuck morals. I dance. Hard. I show off my ass shaking skills. Its all I have to offer to the dance world. I mean, I imagine that dudes are looking and wondering "can she do it on a dick?" & i'm why yes, I CAN. *sigh* We all got some ratchet in us as the great Boosie would say.

For some reason I like to Dance like a stripper... smh.

Also, since I have a nice lil derrière, I enjoy Mark Brown's "Beat Cushion"

I enjoy poppin my pussy as well. Dj Chose & Brook Gang "Pop Dat"

Monday, May 9, 2011

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Maury Classics-- Da Crew Edition

When I was in high school, me & my friends had the MOST fun acting crazy making videos... EVERYTHING is straight improvisational. We meshed so well together & came up with #CLASSIC footage just like that. I hope you enjoyed our rendition of the infamous Paternity Test episodes of Maury :)