Thursday, November 27, 2008

Thankful & Giving

Let us not forget what this day truly mean... No i'm not talking about how the White man came and stole land from our true "forefathers" lol.. :)

But lets me thankful for the things that we have been blessed with; worked hard for, and may possibly be receiving in the future and lets give all that we can to those less fortunate than we are :)

thanks for ALL who have gotten some sort of insight, laughs, entertainment, advice etc from my blog. I am eternally thankful for the feedback, and just the views.. I'm thankful to the constitution and bill of rights.. I HEART freedom of speech & expression :) :) :)

So everyone has seen this change in me this thanksgiving break. Ok, not everyone but you know the fam & friend unit. Say I have lost weight.. funny. K said that too before I left. Said my butt got smaller.. Thanks; i guess.. I don't need your colorful commentary though.. My cousin says I am more confident or at least seem that way.. hmm. Never thought I was ever self-conscious. Ok ok, true..

I got my eyebrows done favorite. I slept through Thanksgiving.. Yes. Blame the sticky.

AND I am so upset at all the formers trying to contact me. Hahaha.. You guys amuse me.

BROKEN-HEARTED GIRL By Beyonce.. MY FAVORITE of the day. Listen to the lyrics..
You're the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I love to not forgive
And though you break my heart
You're the only one

And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can't erase
the times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
its pains me to say
I know I'll be there at the end of the day

The Story of my life right now.. Hahaha. Or maybe just a trip down that ol' beaten path that I shall never do again..

anywho, back to lalala land.


Sunday, November 23, 2008

such a nice guy..

So me. I am such a bitch. Why? I know exactly why they come around. I know exactly why they choose to communicate with me. Its that DARN profile picture. The infamous ass is what they love. They heard the rumors so they want to see what I am ALL about. Haha, he's still here....

Whew. Now he's gone, just left.. its like 6:33am..

They see this image of someone who may just be that hung up on the outter that she completely will do what you think or want her to do. I did it to prove a point. Please go RUN tell that small bit of information. I am not a dumb girl. Of course you may think that I am such an easy one to get but the reality of the situation is, I'm not. I am a very open minded and sexual person.. Which in no way is synonymous with promiscuity. When will be able to open our minds to what is real and what's not. People are so simple minded. I will be the first to let you know that I like sex. I really enjoy it. Will I have a one night stand- haven't had one yet, but I doubt it.. 99% chance that I won't.. Will I have sex with a random guy.. NO. Will I have sex with you just because you're cute?? Ha.. NO. But there are persons who I was not romantically involved with that I had sex with. We were really good friends. Most still are friends of mine. But of course its the ones that you DON'T give the vajayjay to who are umm kind of UPSET. Thats what the rumors come from, the guys who do NOT get it. They are the only ones who are upset. So yeah.. He was such a nice guy.. Thinking that just because he complimented me on my ass meant that he would get it. Ha. NO. I find it very funny that he thought that me saying that NOTHING would happen wouldn't transcend into just that, nothing. So he left here, unpleased. In a huff. Mad. Ha. Thats life. Called me a little girl. I get it. You thought I would just be another quick and easy. So the opposite. If you really wanted to get Me, should not have said those things that painted the perfect picture of how all you wanted was sex. Damn. Anywho, this concludes my rambling. Hope he reads this.

Ha, he just text'd me.. Its 6:40am

He said I'm a bogus motherfucka. Very bogus Am I. Umm some comedian Pierre hit me up on myspace (yes, i still have myspace.. LOVES it).. Invited me to a comedy show of his.. Every Tuesday at Flambeaux. I'm going to remember that. Maybe i'll go. Peacee.

Saturday, November 22, 2008

No Matter What People Say..

My name has been the main topic for years, so i'm used to people talking about me. I think its kind of refreshing.. Ok, not really.. But I do feel as if i am somewhat a celebrity.. In my mind at least.

but anywho, the only thing I feel like I should protect is my integrity. If its not true, I feel the sudden urge to you know blast the naysayers (is that right?) lol I mean if you're gonna say something, at least make sure its the TRUTH.

Why should I have to justify anything that I have done? Why should I have to go through the long list of "rumors" and check true or false or correct when the information is slighty misconstruyed??

If anyone knows the truth, it should be me. Hell, I have no problem letting YOU know whats really going on, but of course we live in an age where women are still grouped in a category of being "loose" just because we choose to do what we want. One, I'm not a virgin. Whew. Two, if I have sex with Mike, Joey, and Eric thats totally MY business. Haha.

And is it against the law to be close friends with guys?? There are many guys who i've spent the night with and nothing happened. No kissing or anything.. Hmmm..
But its just being in a small environment people LOVE to run there mouths and speak on things they know nothing of. I hope none of these GUYS are the ones who are saying this.. Probably so. Oh well.

All in all, I still don't think that anyone has the right to call anyone else something other than there name.. Judge me all you want. clearly I could care LESS. If only you knew the TRUTH; that would make an AWESOME novel.. but of course you don't. So all I can say is keep talking.. be it true, completely false or somewhat true..

So listen to Can't Hold Us Down by Christina Aguilera, you'd appreciate it. Or No Matter What People say by Lil' Kim..


fuck the double standard..

Thursday, November 20, 2008

I Am... Sasha Fierce!

so anyone who knows me should know that my favorite CELEBRITY/SINGER of all time is the one and only Beyonce Giselle Knowles..Yes its safe to say that I AM obsessed. I know its sickening but I ONLY buy Beyonce Albums, everyone else i merely listen to on imeem, youtube or download for FREE. haha, just because i LOVE Bey~


so i'm listening to the songs now.. and this is my personal review...

so i'm totally torn.. can't decide on the side i prefer..well my faves are of courseIf i were a boy, Halo, Disappear, Single Ladies, Diva, Video Phone, Hello etc..oh snap, how could i have overlooked Ave Maria, EGO, Broken-Hearted Girl,

Video Phone is a bit sexual.. like really Bey, you want him to film you?? FREAK.

and Ego is a bit Risque.. too much, too big, can back it up?? haha you crazy Bey..

Diva is typical Bey..loves it.

I Am..
01. If I Were A Boy 4:10

02. Halo 4:21

03. Disappear 4:28

04. Broken-Hearted Girl 4:38

05. Ave Maria 3:41

06. Smash Into You 4:31

07. Satellites 3:08

08. That's Why You're Beautiful 3:41

Sasha Fierce
01. Single Ladies (Put A Ring On It) 3:13

02. Radio 3:38

03. Diva 3:20

04. Sweet Dreams 3:28

05. Video Phone 3:35

06. Hello 4:16

07. Ego 3:56

08. Scared Of Lonely 3:42

BUY IT :) :) :)

UPDATE:!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!So the more i listen to the cd the more i realize that artistically speaking, this is classic..

I mean, I think this is Dangerously In Love type good.. Beyonce has stepped out of the typical and stereotypical R&B/Hip Hop-ish feel and created songs that has crossed the genre lines. Everyone song is filled with so much emotion that even if you haven't experienced what the lyrics refer to, you still feel what the words..

If I was the Source magazine, i would undoubtedly given Beyonce 5 mics.. but since she isn't a rapper, though tracks like Diva would beg to differ, she deserves five mics :).

If you haven't gotten I am.. Sasha Fierce, get get get it...

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

A Midsemester Night's Dream..

i think that she is you wanna know why?

well, its a little past midnight on a saturday night and she is alone.but this is the norm..
she'll always be alone on a saturday night..
but not because there isn't anyone who'd like to spend time with her or keep her company when boredom overwhelms her..
she just prefers to be lonely. its better that way..
she won't have to be bothered with the awkward banter between herselfand that random guy who obviously only has one thing on his mind..
she won't have to sit and be disgusted across the table from that overtlygross guy who has stared at her cleavage the whole night just for a free meal.
she won't have to exchange witty commentary with that super cool dude whom she feels extremely uncomfortable around because he only knows her thru fbook.
she won't have to worry about her appearance or what that new old guy thinksof her because he prefers his ladies to have a head full of newly purchased hair.

She can just be herself, with herself.
No strings. No worries.

shell always be a little bit lonely but its okay..
its better that way.
who wants to impress others when they've already thoroughly impressed themselves.

she can only be in the company of another who has already accepted her for HER, flaws and all.
someone who understands her..
someone who can read between the lines because she doesn't come out and says exactly what she wants..
but still he knows exactly what she means.
why bother with the not quite rights or he's cute but not my types..
or the well he makes me laugh and the sex is amazing but...

no need to explain why.
he just simply is.
until then..
she'll just be um,

lonely :)

Oxy & the Moron

oxymoron [oksi‐mor‐on] (plural ‐mora), a figure of speech that combines two usually contradictory terms in a compressed paradox, as in the word bittersweet or the phrase living death.
everyone's dying to stand out yet conformity is inevitable.
funny how nobody wants to be an outcast, they're all wanting to just fit in.

life is a contradiction?
we're either spending too much time trying to fit into this mold of how society says we should be OR trying to desperately break out of that SAME mold to prove we are all individuals.
WE ARE EQUAL.. but we think we are different.
We are not the same; yet we are?

life is confusing?

i am a woman. i am a man. i am a boy. i am a girl. i am male. i am we are different?
i am human. you are human. they are human. we are human.yet we are just alike?
we part our hair in the middle; sameness! my part is to the right, hers is to the left; individualist :)
"I am unlike any man you have ever met.." says a guy, to which I eagerly respond:
"Surprisingly, every man I have met has told me the exact same line- so you are the same"

I understand we are different. Lil Wayne says "WE ARE NOT THE SAME-- I AM A MARTIAN" trying to prove this theory.. But I'm a martian too! So he lied...
49% of you are dying to fit in..49% of you are trying to stand out..2% of you are too young to know or too old to care.

remember how Oxy went and got J's for school so every Moron followed in his footsteps?? remember when Moron wanted to be cool & upgraded to Vans so Oxy and the gang followed suit, because you know Vans were "cool".

Oxy had loooong hair, Moron didn't. Moron got extensions, she has long hair too. Oxy was tired of her long hair, cut it short. They called her Rihanna; she was trying to be different though.
Throwback/Old Skool/Retro~ that doesn't equal different; just repetitive or recycled.the New Retro??


EQUAL (1): of the same measure, quantity, amount, or number as another (2): identical in mathematical value or logical denotation : equivalent b: like in quality, nature, or status c: like for each member of a group, class, or society synonyms: same

DIFFERENT1: partly or totally unlike in nature, form, or quality : dissimilar 2: not the same: as a: distinct b: various c: another3: unusual , special

I'm trying to be different, yet I'm dying to fit in.

Wednesday, November 5, 2008


The FIRST African American President, The FIRST Black President.. The FIRST President who resembles ME; The 44th President, Barack Hussein Obama!
Many people doubted him, including myself. We said that America was not ready for a Black President.. We said that WHITES would not elect a black president.. We even said that Black people themselves would not even vote, let alone vote for a black man to become president. Now we see that the impossible can happen. Anything is possible. When they tell us that we can be anything, we can look at them and believe that what they are telling us is true. The DREAM has officially come full circle.

Unfortunately some caucasians or non blacks are upset right about now and are threatening to move to Canada. That's sad. It's understandable.. You would want a president who is just going to continue to downward spiral of doom that the Bush administration has put us in. This is the time where our country should come together as a whole; To finally sit back and evaluate just how rascist and prejudiced we still are as a society. The reckless accusations that he is only half white therefor should not even be considered the first BLACK president is just bull because I know, we know, and you know that Caucasians would not look at him and see a White man. He is black. Remember, this is "your" own rule.. One drop of blackness, 100% blackness. His birth certificate says African American therefor He is AFRICAN AMERICAN. Also, the upset that he is supposedly a muslim?! One, he is a christian and President Obama has said this numerous times before that he is not a muslim, but worships a Christian God. Even if he was a Muslim, why would that matter? What is wrong with you idiots today who still think that we are fighting a war against Muslims? Were you asleep these last six or seven years?? I was sure that this was a war against terrorism unless George w. Bush is just as corrupt as Saddam Hussein & Osama Bin Laden. We are not killing off Muslims. Yes, I said We, We the People of the United States~ Finally I can say that and believe that I am truly apart of the U.S.A.

President Barack Obama.
November 4, 2008 is a day that shall be remembered for years and years to come. Thank God that I'm apart of History now :)