Friday, April 6, 2012
So I'm guessing this flick is symbolic of me walking away from my past; from all the drama, the stress, the madness, the fuckery-- everything.
A couple of weeks ago I spent an hour at the beach one night just thinking. I walked barefoot through the sand, letting the water splash around my legs.. and I just thought. I cleansed my soul that night. I let everything out. I felt so rejuvenated afterwards but very much open & emotional.
Since then I've been guarding my heart more. I've let go of so much.. still holding on to some. I just want to be happy again. If that takes continuing to walk further & further away, then so be it. I will continue to walk this long & treacherous path of life.. even if I have to walk alone. Bey said: "I'm known to walk alone but I'm alone for a reason." I feel as if my reason for walking alone is that I need to find myself. I need to figure out exactly who I am before I can attempt to link arms with another.
It's hard to walk away. And I walk away in 6inch platform pumps.