RECAPTIVATION

Happy New Year!!!

It's been awhile since i last wrote. Nothing really to say actually. I feel better this year than last, yet still a tad bit lonely.. But of course that should be expected.

I realized that he didn't love me anymore. Ha. Doubt if he ever did. Not that I loved him. But still, stinger. Some reason Beyonce YES is playing over and over. He expected so much yet gave little or nothing besides a few moments of pleasure. It has to be more to get my heart. Can't believe he thought that everything would be just peachy after he blatantly ignored me for months then all of a sudden when I was back in state, found the need to reach out to me.

Or there was the one who I did love, who told me that if i stayed here, we'd be together. I came here.. and stayed. Nothing prospered. I wasn't upset, just shocked. Then relieved because I was at the point in my life where I was soo close to staying just for him.

You act so progressive and FEMINIST in your thinking, yet you would be domesticated & belittled in a minute just for the admiration and acceptance of a man.
You'd forget all that you learned and protested for just for the potential of having that princess diamond cut 2.5 carat on your left hand.
All that for a man.

I think not. I rather be ringless. I rather be alone. Myself and my sanity is more important than any man. I finally can say that I am happy with it.